+ 承诺 +

对着心爱的人
许下了承诺
“我永远爱你”
“我爱你一生一世”
“不管外面的风雨有多大 ，我们永远都不分开”
“为了你 ，做什么都是值得”

听到这些承诺
我感觉到幸福
不过 ..
你的承诺
我心领了

朋友的诺言
我心领了
说一套做一套
答应的事
最后也反悔

在这世上
哪有人没许下承诺
但是
有哪个承诺会实现

听到那些承诺
麻木了
由左耳进右耳出
对我而言
不去相信 听就够了

你们的承诺
一次又一次的
打碎了我的心
那是因为
一次又一次的
我相信你们

到最后
笨的是我
伤到的是我
等待的是我

你们的承诺 我就听着先吧！

PiCturessSs ~

@RoyaL MeLbournE sHow ~ [ 23 SePt ]











yay~ muA BB DraGon *wiN From LucKy NumBeR ~ ^^


NiGht ~ FireWorK ^^ *keNa mY eYes puLak T.T


muA BB DurEgOn *lol* & muA *OnE PieCe* !! YAY !!

又病了！

唉 .. 真难适应不同的环境 ..
今年都不知病了多少次！

这次严重咯 .. 发热气！
嘴唇超干又热的 ，脸烫烫红红的 .. 还是第一次呃！
似乎快要把我头烧掉！ 还好正放假 ..

还不是自己的错 ..
喝不够水 .. 睡眠不足 .. 在外吹到冷风 ..
尤其是昨天 .. 我和朋友一起去游乐场 "Royal Melbourne Show" ..
带着疲劳的身体出 T.T 不过 ，还挺开心的嘛 XP
没想到天气的变化 ，风非常狂！还是冷的呃！
人老了 .. 才玩几个魔天轮就晕了！还是 ，身体累坏了还跑去玩！
记得那时去Gold Coast连续三天玩刺激的天轮车都不觉得累！ .. 好怀念噢 ..
Anyway.. 收获不少 ^^ 最奇迹的是 .. 在我这一生 ，我竟然抽中幸运号码得奖！
哈哈哈！！！

玩够了 .. 也该休息和温习功课咯！

男人？女人？

“男人真不容易当，可是女人都不太会明白！”

男人不容易当 ，那女人容易当吗！
这位小朋友 ，你好无聊喔！
好吧，让我来说说女人的苦 ..
就从古代说起，女人都是必须在很早的年龄嫁人了。
就算对方是上年纪的老头子，能够嫁是件好事了。
男人有的选择，那女人呢？
就因为环境的变化，在这社会上，女人终于慢慢地发挥自己的实力 ，为自己保持在这社会上的地位。

在感情方面呢 ..
唉 .. 有拍拖有分手 ，有结婚有离婚 ..
分手了的女人没什么大不了 ，最多在去找新的心上人 。
离婚了的女人呢！？
有句话说 .. 男人怕进错行业 ，女人怕嫁错老公！


小朋友 ，你说得对 ..

"男人若不去调戏女人，女人说你不是一个男人；你若调戏了女人，女人又说你不是一个好男人。男人性情活泼，女人称之轻狂；若严肃一点吧，女人又说太死板。男人衣冠楚楚，女人说你油头粉面，奶油一个；若穿着随便一点，女人又说一副穷酸样。男人天天打电话约女人，女人说真烦；哪一天忘了打了，女人又说怎么你不关心我？男人出手大方，女人说你挥霍浪费，不会过日子；稍一节俭吧，女人说你吝啬小气。"

女人那么麻烦 ，那么小气 ，都是怕男人一脚踏两船！
“天下乌鸦一般黑”


我个人觉得，女人注定是脆弱的。残忍的说 ，很有可能会受到很多残忍的委屈 ，甚至会影响个人生活 ，被社会说闲话 ，被冷落 等等 ..
不会错过一天，妈妈都会读者报纸告诉我 ..今天又有个年轻女孩被强奸被杀 ，你啊.. 晚上出去不要那么夜回家 ，最好是不要出去！万一什么事情发生就糟糕！
唉 .. 凶手是谁呢？不晓得 .. 不过 ，当然是男的咯！
唉 .. 男人怎么晓得被强奸的痛苦呢 ，为了自己的快乐去伤害别人 ..
这种“虐待” ，恐怕会留下可怕的影子 ，甚至会让她们失去做人的意义 。
写著 ，想一想 ，意外难避免 。只可求上天保佑！

男人苦 ，女人也苦啊 ..
这位小朋友 .. 请你在女人的角度来看才做判断！
你以为女人也是神仙吗！？真是的 ..
我个人不会埋怨男人 ，不过在感情上我对这些臭男人没信心了 XP

男人也好 ，女人也好 ..
个有个的困难 ，是人都会犯错的 ..
男人不容易当 ，女人也不容易当 ..
都说人是不完美的啦！

有个朋友说 ，个人有自己的意见啦 ..
对啊 .. 不过 ，只是想让这位小朋友明白女人！ XP

体谅是一种美德！

解开 ~

日子的每一分，每一秒
真不好过
早晨
张开眼
感觉到我的呼吸
原来 我还活着

夜里
独自一人的想
想东想西的
不是胡思乱想
而是想着我自己

头脑啊 ~
很对不起你
每天二十四个小时都让你跑
无法让你停下休息
就连夜晚梦里都让你跑
累坏了你

眼睛啊 ~
谢谢你让我能够看到这世界
让我见到人生的生老病死
对不起
为了我
你流下了无数的泪
创造了一片海

耳朵啊 ~
谢谢你让我听得到
让我听到悦耳动听的音乐
调整我的脑袋 ，心情 ，甚至身体
让我安定下来 ，冷静下来

宝贝的心啊 ~
感觉到你在跳
才知道我是活着的
非常抱歉的
因为我的心情
弄得你很脆弱
甜酸苦辣都让你滋味到

感谢你们的存在
无时无刻的
为我解开和解决问题
让我想通了事件

我一定会好好保护你们
保护内部与外部
因为你们
我才可有完整的人体

你们的"灵魂"
我才有灵感想好每个文章

手 ，谢谢你为我完成了这篇文章 ..

謊言~

甜言蜜語..
有誰不愛聽..
甜言蜜語的謊言..
有誰愛聽﹖

寒冷的夜裡
閉上眼
耳邊似乎有些聲音

細心的聽
不是空氣聲
不是呼吸聲
不是心跳聲

再次細心的聽
是你的聲音
你的甜言蜜語

你的甜言蜜語
不停地進入我耳裡
接著 臉上露出幸福的笑容
也許 那些甜言蜜語都是謊言
為了哄我開心 你講了這些謊言

曾經討厭你 甚至痛恨你
把有關于你的一切都忘掉
但 最終還是原諒你
我無法把你忘掉
我不忍心討厭你 痛恨你
那是因為 我愛你

朋友 ~

現在的心情..
非常失落~
只感覺到心裡非常非常的酸..
我的心好小啊 ...

就算我身邊有數不清的朋友﹐好朋友不可以多.. 最多就兩三個吧~
就算朋友怎樣對待我.. 有多糟糕我都不會放在心上.. 但﹐好朋友就不一樣..
我不要求高也不要求多﹐只希望他們在我需要幫忙的時候陪在我身邊﹐支持我﹐鼓勵我.. 也更希望他們了解我.. 不會說出傷害我的詞..
我這樣貪心嗎﹖

現在正在外國求學的我..
什麼事和問題﹐我都自己面對..
很高興﹐因為一個人的生活讓我學會獨立..
朋友們都問﹐什麼時候回去.. 很想念我..
還沒出國之前﹐我在想..
我的離去﹐才會讓他們知道我的存在..
時間﹐會把我的存在﹐從他們的記憶裡慢慢消失..

好朋友﹐在我還沒離去之前﹐很少聯絡我.. 多數都是由我的..
其實我很不高興.. 可是他們都是我好朋友﹐忍不住就去聯絡他們﹐保持友情..
有一位﹐不知該怎麼形容.. 講一套做一套.. 有時說的話會傷到我..
不過﹐當我有事時她會幫我﹐陪我..
人﹐還是不完美的啦..

想一想﹐過去的還是算了吧..
不需把過去的事拿出來說..

還是自己好好的過日子吧..
自己的好日子是自己創造的噢 XP

台湾 ~

現在是凌晨3時29分 ..
聽著Chemistry的慢歌 ..
跟一個傻婆聊天 ..
我們就聊到關於去年12月在台灣的日子 ..
時間過得真快啊 .. 都已經過了年中﹐年底也該快到了 ..
不知不覺一年就這樣過去..

以為已經不見的CD竟然找到了﹗CD裡存了在台灣拍的照片.. 回憶啊﹗
打開來看.. 讓我回想起那段日子..
認識了很多新朋友.. 也有一個乾弟弟呃﹗哈哈..
看著那些照片.. 每張照片﹐不管是男是女﹐都拍到很親密.. 女的有多親密都不算什麼.. 但是﹐男的也那麼親密呃﹗在那段時間在一起的日子非常久﹐21天呃﹗所以有多親密都覺得沒什麼的.. 都當他們是死黨 XP 可是﹐現在對著那些照片跟男生拍的.. 親切到像情人.. 讓我覺得很不自在 X.X 可能太久沒聯絡了吧.. 變得陌生了..
我個人其實不太喜歡說話.. 就保持安靜的﹐都是聽別人說話。我可能怕講錯話吧.. 有時也覺得只是個應酬﹖﹗但是在台灣那段日子﹐我和我隊友都相處還好.. 廢話多多.. 可是回國﹐整個人不同了.. 也不算是不同.. 只是回去原來的我.. 話也少了..
我不喜歡應酬.. 也不太喜歡去認識新朋友.. 只有認識非常久的要好朋友才話多多..

寫著這篇文章.. 想著自己到底是怎樣的人.. 不曉得.. 只感覺到我的心非常非常的小.. 心門是關閉的..

不繼續了..

- END -

[Cont.] Living Harmony With Others . .

3. Conducting oneself for the benefit of others
Always do your best to help others..
"Be the first to worry about the world's problem, be the last to enjoy its prosperity"..
Think what can I do for others, instead of what others can do for me..

- Venerable Hsing Yun -
credit to: The Book "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living"

Whenever friends ask for favor from me.. if I knew I can help I will straight away promise them.. for some reasons and some of my friends.. I regret for give the promise because I don't feel like helping them for certain reasons.. and so, I lie and break prmosie T.T I really hate myself for doing that but.. sigh~ when you feel not wanting to help, you wont help even you can == well, i guess for some people only.. I must aware of my actions...

Friday . .

Friday should be a happy day but.. to me.. I don't really like that day because i gonna attend a class that I don't like to go T.T 3hours lec+tut.. but I think I am gonna get used to it.. I hope this semester I can work out well and proceed to next semester next year..

Now, it is going to 430am, Saturday morning, and I am still sitting in front of my laptop write blog T.T Just feel like writing what I did on Friday XP So.. what I did?! Shopping!! again?!?!?! nahhh ~ shopping for my food XP 3 bags!! Junkssss!!!! hahahah.. fat fat.. only one pack of snack and chocolate >< * then.. dinner with vivi, yumin, mic at the "Dessert House Chinese Restaurant".. Enjoyable meal XD Then went to shop again!!! FOOD!! Accompany friends actually but still BUY!!! Goin to broke mann XP Seeing things with the lowest price.. I don't wanna miss it!! So can't stop myself T.T Mann.. I am like those "Aunty" who always hunt for cheap things!!! *LOL*

Later then, we went to "FREEDO" (not sure the correct spelling)... Forrrr ICE CREAM!!! yummyy ~ The best in Melbourne!!! Rouche!!! Nuttella!! Famous Durian Flavour!!! ahhhh ~ ~

Here is the photo of the icyyy creammmm ~

[Cont.] Living Harmony With Others . .

2. Speaking With Kind Words
Should compliment rather than criticize;
Use loving words rather than scathing remarks;
Arguments and fights always been started with unkind or rude words;
Gentle words could be easily replaced to avoid arguements and fights;

"If we are mindful in our speech, being cautious always to speak with affection, our relationships will be grounded in trust and compassion."

- Venerable Hsing Yun -
credit to: The Book "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living"

Whenever I read the book, in my mind, I will reflect my past. Reflect how rude am I treating people around me.. Don't respect parents and always argue or shout at them.. I don't want to but my anger have been control me.. Then after my action, I was regret of how rude am I but what I have said there is no turning back.. I can't take back words that I have said to them.. However, learn from mistakes and promise not to repeat again.. It is not too late to learn and change my words.. Being a gentle and a generous (etc) person, I think or can say that believe that, should be able to speak gentle words or words with no harm to others very naturally.. Just like when you are in good mood, you will treat people very nice and say nice things to them, as in there is no harm to others.. So why not choose being in good mood everyday.. Kinda difficult huh?! I always remind myself that XP So, sometimes I can do it but when bad mood come.. ohhh noooooooo ~ T.T

Living in Harmony with Others . .

Buddha teaches us about building affinity and living in harmony with others..
The four virtues:
1. Giving
2. Speaking with kind words
3. Conducting oneself for the benefit of others
4. Adapting oneself to others

Most people lives and focus on their own comfort and success in order to satisfy themselves, often unwilling to put others ahead of ourselves. Also, strive to be be better than others and often measure the quality of their livings by comparing with others around them..
Selfishness, people prevent from being generous to others and make all kinds of excuses for not to give..

1. Giving
"It Is Better to Give Than to Receive"
Once there were two men from the same village; one was misery, one was generous. They both happened to pass away at about the same time. In death, they appeared before King Yama, who was about to pass judgement on their past actions. He told the two men, "I'm goin to let both of you be reborn into the world. One of you will always be giving, while the other will always be receiving. Which one would you rather be?"
The misery person immediately spoke up, "I want to be the one that will always be receiving". The generous man doesn't mind being the one who would continually be giving, and so he nodded in agreement.
King Yama said to the misery man, "Since you choose to be receiving from others, you will be reborn as a beggar. This will give you plenty of opportunities to be on the receiving end." Then, he said to the generous man, " You will be reborn into great wealth. Share your wealth with those less fortunate and give alms."

Giving is not necessary have to be money or possessions. It can be; help someone who has fallen down, show concern for others or when we give compliments.. The acts of kindness which do not cost anything and which we are all capable of performing..

- Venerable Hsing Yun -
credit to: The Book "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living"

I read that book and feel that wanted to share with others, and so I posted it here.. People often see those cover of the books are not interesting and don't bother to see the inside.. Anyway.. thanks for read it patiently and then spread to others as well ^^
When I read that, of course I was thinking of myself.. Thinking that.. "What about me?" Always ask questions to myself to determine whats good and bad ><
However, I am still normal human though.. One of my friend ask me for something but I just ignore "Terrible huh".. I was thinking, why should I because that friend does not help me when I need help for something, thats why I do the same to that friend.. Thats what normally people do in this world.. I knew I were wrong but I was unhappy for what that friend treat me like that.. Sigh ~
I realise that friends around me do not alert their own mistake but focus on others' mistake.. Once you make a mistake, they will remember it forever.. They would not remember how helpful you are.. I believe most people only remember how badly others treat them instead of how good others treat them..

There is too much stories in my life..

Anyway.. to be continue with; 2. Speaking with kind words ..

Weirdoooo XD

Just now have an interesting conversation with this friend of mine.. he seriously siao one XP and so.. I love to bully him XO because our conversation is so funny and so I decided to post here... HAHA ~
here it goes..
He saying that he really concern me and so I should to concern him too.. Why should I ?!
I ask him why and give me 10 DIFFERENT reasons *LOL* (knew he will give 10 SAME reasons) XD
he said..
1. WE close mahh
2. I care for you so you must also care for me
3. Like that can close our bond
4. I like the feeling of being care
5. I am a weird person
6. Buddhism encouring caring for people
7. This is also a way for meditation
8. You are doing good deed
9. Increase you goodwill
10. You will confirm enjoy it

What the ~

My turn..
1. Yess mehhhh ?!?!?!
2. Not necessary ohhh~
3. HUH?!?! *Blur*
4. So whats gonne do with me ?!
5. I TOTALLY agree
6. Hmmm.. Buddhism is a religion, and so.. your sentence is ERROR !! (wahahha~)
7. Nothing to do with meditation you siao kiaaaaa ~
8. Is that good deed?! [O. o]
9. Me become "sam pat po" only
10. I confirm sure will be suffering..

In conclusion.. only ONE acceptable.. Therefore, YOU FAIL !!! nyahahahhaha ~

Relationship ~

Recently got a close friend not really happy of her relationship with her boyfriend.. Could not help her much as i don't know their relationship situation.. All i can do is to support and encourage whatever she do..
Kinda sad to hear she is not happy as i know that she really appreciate the relationship.. I can see that from the very beginning she is very happy and as a good friend.. I really feel happy for her too.. I guess might be communication problem as relationship go longer, "real" attitute shown >< Don't know how is she now.. Hope she is alright as she is a emotional person..

Thinking of the love relationship between a couple.. starting is always the sweetest time ever.. BUT.. How about the time spend later?! What will happen then?! Arguement.. Fight.. Jealousy..Whats more?!
Strong love must be build within the couple in order to go on the relationship.. Well.. there is even more for the couple to do so! Patient.. Trust.. Understanding.. etc.. Isn't it complicated.. Even strong love might turn to jealousy = = Really complicated though.. and whatever happen.. words must be careful as couple fight or argue.. First thing in mind will be "I wanna break up with this person".. This kind of person is even worst than the worst!!!
There is another i don't understand.. even a relationship that already last long to like 4 or 5 years also end up with sad ending.. sigh~ Life seriously complicated = =

My ex who already been like almost 3 years no contact suddenly contact me.. and surprisingly telling me for wanting to get back together = = what the.. Mann ~ what on earth is he thinking of that?! [O. o] Whatever..

Friday NiGht ~

Just now went to Bismi Restaurant (Indian Restaurant).. *aGain* with other friends.. Plain Roti Canai only also cost AUD2.60 !! Back in Msia.. only cost 60 CENT !! Oh my.. so BIG different.. Anyway, enjoyable dinner with them ^^ then hangout at my friend place watched some videos as we were talking about DBSG and Suju *lol* .. It was so funny in our conversation..

We watch DBSG called Suju on the live radio station when DBSG were in Japan.. DBSG were fooling around, want Suju to guess who is on the phone *lol* .. DBSG change their voice and Suju can't recognise!! haha.. It was so funny where the part JJ (DBSG member) acting as he is fans of Suju.. He is so cute ^^ haha.. and the part MinMin (DBSG member) is very cute too as he really trick Suju with his "voice" *lol* then he change back his own voice.. is like OMG.. soooo different!!! hahahha..

Then my friend show the Suju (13 members) new drama, which they were seperate into groups and come out with scary story to film.. The purpose of the drama is that people will vote which drama is the most scary one.. sort of competition between the members.. hehe..
And so, my friend show one of the drama.. it started off with one of the group discussion on what kind of story to come out.. and then the drama begin.. It was in high school after classes over, there is a student being punish by a teacher.. That student is full of anger and he commited suicide in the class.. Using the cutter.. (did not show how he suicide) .. *camera man focus* the blood dripping *I knew something wrong* *no time to avoid the eyes on the screen* *he died and eyes were open wide* *freaking sound system* .... BLOODY HELL!!! FREAK ME OUT!!! Is like just on second watch the drama and I already scream and fell down T.T
My scream scare my friends but not the drama T.T so basically only watch like one minutes T.T
"Shutter".. The Thailand scary movie was my very last scary movie I watched years ago *force by friends* *no choice* T.T and now just ONLY that so call no big deal shot freak me out T.T

sigh.. definitely NO MORE scary movie AT ALL IN MY LIFE!!!
*NO*

T.T

GratefuL ~

Buddhism is my religion.. I know nothing about religion when I was young but I just follow what my mother doing things, such as go to temple, pray and etc.. I even when for 7-Days retreat few times as my mother register for me.. Without complain, I went to the retreat few times.. Retreat is all about meditation, practice buddha's teaching and etc.. Put aside all personal matters and set our mind free during the period.. To develop our discipline, concentration and wisdom.. At that moment, I started to learn and understand about my religion..

Buddhism as an education.. Buddha is not a God but instead, a teacher who teaches us about achieving freedom from suffering, Ultimate Happiness.. The Five Precepts to observe.. etc..
There is too much to know, learn and practice on the teaching of buddha..

I always pray and transfer merit to my family and all beings.. May they be well and happy always.. I pray and pay respect to Buddha, and be grateful for what I have now.. I pray and repent for all mistakes I done in the past and remind myself not to repeat the same mistakes and also not to do inappropriate manners in future..
I read books such as, "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living" "Di Zi Gui : Guide to a Happy Life" "The Buddha Speaks of : The Cost and Effect Sutra" .. etc..I don't know how to explain in words, but what I feel is that.. I feel more calm and peace in my mind and my heart..

I would never forgot the teaching of Buddha.. Practice what I have learn from Buddha's teaching.. I knew that my life will be much better ^^

I am grateful I have learn ^^

想你的黑夜

深夜了
每個人各自朝著自己的美夢裡去了
而我 還在傻傻的思念著他

寂寞的夜晚
對著窗外的天空
看著吊在空中的月亮
腦袋裡出現了你的影子
想著你也是否同時在賞月

寧靜的夜晚
對著窗外的天空
找不到星星的足跡
想把我的心聲告訴星星
傳達給你
星星都躲在你那兒了嗎﹖

漫長的夜晚
躲在被單裡
合上雙眼
似乎感受到你在我身邊
抱著我 好讓我靠在你懷裡
悄悄地吻我額頭讓我入睡

亮麗的早晨
在童話故事裡
王子的吻呼喚醒睡美人
睜開眼睛就見到王子
而你 只是你的影子出現在我腦海裡

感激你送給我的美夢
你對我的溫柔
我已偷藏在心底
讓我感到非常溫馨

GoOd Time . . .

13 August 2006

Today went to have lunch with some friends.. indian restaurant ohh >< then went for shoppping with them.. my girl friend can't help herself not to go into those shops with the word DISCOUNT posted in the window *LOL* as for me.. i must buy things from these shops XP discount weiii... haha.. bought a bag, cute keychain, dress, rings .. cheap owww ~ saw few jacket and dress are soooo nice BUT expensive T.T only if i have money to buy XD

Later on.. went to St Kilda Beach.. so nice.. but we don't have chance to go the beach cause we too busy shopping *LOL* Sure got chance to go anytime since is quite near the city XP There is a lot of cake shop there!! all the chocolate and cheese >< yumm yumm.. but we did not buy!! haha.. we went to a KL cafe for dinner.. i ate nasi goreng (vegetarian) *LOL*..
Great time with them XD

These days really calm myself from not afraid of "things".. Today shopping really make a big relieve to me.. stay at home too oftenly make me "no air to breath" T.T
Life is too challenging and I have to face the fact of lose and accept it.. Think wisely will not be too pressure on myself.. Meditation is the best way to develop happiness in daily living.. I should meditate more ^^


* P e a C e *

Lost My SouL Before I Lost My Life

mann.. i really have no idea whats wrong with me.. in all the sudden i feel stress at this semester.. even i ONLY take 3 subjects T.T is just only started new semester!!

oh my god..
is like i am entering the door of hell!?
on my way to?! ...

I aM LosT T.T
Couldn't find my way out..

I wonder..
Where is the light lead me to the exit?!

I wonder..
When will this suffering end?!

I wonder..
Will there any hand lift me up?!

I wonder..
Where is my confident gone?!

I wonder..
Will my tears stop?!

I wonder.. I wonder.. I wonder..
I wish this world could just live simple without any further growth in economy.. less challenging.. less politics.. no wars..
Right now is just too much.. giving people more stress and pressure, which may be lead to suicide.. well actually people give people stress tho..they wish for more than what they have right now!!
sigh~ life is complicated..
my life is complicated tho ~
i lost my soul before i lost my life ..

todaY ~

Today is a really tiring day.. went to uni very early borrow some books ><
Today finally attend that lecture class.. Well.. he is not that bad tho XP just that must 100% concentrate his lecture because he will ask you questions about what he talking ><100% concentrate!!! How am i goin to do that!! after listening his lecture, at most 30mins, i will have gone to my dreamland T.T Now because of him i HAVE TO do that T.T
Have been feeling weird to this lecture.. i am so afraid of him!!! T.T WHY?!?!?!?! wanna die mann~ remind me of my high school english tuition teacher.. i was so afraid of her too and even make me cry T.T she is sort of impatient person.. maybe because she is single XP

sigh.. must work hard more than anyone as i am not a smart person =.= is that everyone born being doomed whether in smart or stupid brain?! arghhhh ~ i wish i can at least get smarter tho ><

あたし、ほんとにばか！