3. Conducting oneself for the benefit of others
Always do your best to help others..
"Be the first to worry about the world's problem, be the last to enjoy its prosperity"..
Think what can I do for others, instead of what others can do for me..
- Venerable Hsing Yun -
credit to: The Book "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living"
Whenever friends ask for favor from me.. if I knew I can help I will straight away promise them.. for some reasons and some of my friends.. I regret for give the promise because I don't feel like helping them for certain reasons.. and so, I lie and break prmosie T.T I really hate myself for doing that but.. sigh~ when you feel not wanting to help, you wont help even you can == well, i guess for some people only.. I must aware of my actions...
29 August 2006
26 August 2006
Friday . .
Friday should be a happy day but.. to me.. I don't really like that day because i gonna attend a class that I don't like to go T.T 3hours lec+tut.. but I think I am gonna get used to it.. I hope this semester I can work out well and proceed to next semester next year..
Now, it is going to 430am, Saturday morning, and I am still sitting in front of my laptop write blog T.T Just feel like writing what I did on Friday XP So.. what I did?! Shopping!! again?!?!?! nahhh ~ shopping for my food XP 3 bags!! Junkssss!!!! hahahah.. fat fat.. only one pack of snack and chocolate >< * then.. dinner with vivi, yumin, mic at the "Dessert House Chinese Restaurant".. Enjoyable meal XD Then went to shop again!!! FOOD!! Accompany friends actually but still BUY!!! Goin to broke mann XP Seeing things with the lowest price.. I don't wanna miss it!! So can't stop myself T.T Mann.. I am like those "Aunty" who always hunt for cheap things!!! *LOL*
Later then, we went to "FREEDO" (not sure the correct spelling)... Forrrr ICE CREAM!!! yummyy ~ The best in Melbourne!!! Rouche!!! Nuttella!! Famous Durian Flavour!!! ahhhh ~ ~
Here is the photo of the icyyy creammmm ~
Now, it is going to 430am, Saturday morning, and I am still sitting in front of my laptop write blog T.T Just feel like writing what I did on Friday XP So.. what I did?! Shopping!! again?!?!?! nahhh ~ shopping for my food XP 3 bags!! Junkssss!!!! hahahah.. fat fat.. only one pack of snack and chocolate >< * then.. dinner with vivi, yumin, mic at the "Dessert House Chinese Restaurant".. Enjoyable meal XD Then went to shop again!!! FOOD!! Accompany friends actually but still BUY!!! Goin to broke mann XP Seeing things with the lowest price.. I don't wanna miss it!! So can't stop myself T.T Mann.. I am like those "Aunty" who always hunt for cheap things!!! *LOL*
Later then, we went to "FREEDO" (not sure the correct spelling)... Forrrr ICE CREAM!!! yummyy ~ The best in Melbourne!!! Rouche!!! Nuttella!! Famous Durian Flavour!!! ahhhh ~ ~
Here is the photo of the icyyy creammmm ~
[Cont.] Living Harmony With Others . .
2. Speaking With Kind Words
Should compliment rather than criticize;
Use loving words rather than scathing remarks;
Arguments and fights always been started with unkind or rude words;
Gentle words could be easily replaced to avoid arguements and fights;
"If we are mindful in our speech, being cautious always to speak with affection, our relationships will be grounded in trust and compassion."
- Venerable Hsing Yun -
credit to: The Book "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living"
Whenever I read the book, in my mind, I will reflect my past. Reflect how rude am I treating people around me.. Don't respect parents and always argue or shout at them.. I don't want to but my anger have been control me.. Then after my action, I was regret of how rude am I but what I have said there is no turning back.. I can't take back words that I have said to them.. However, learn from mistakes and promise not to repeat again.. It is not too late to learn and change my words.. Being a gentle and a generous (etc) person, I think or can say that believe that, should be able to speak gentle words or words with no harm to others very naturally.. Just like when you are in good mood, you will treat people very nice and say nice things to them, as in there is no harm to others.. So why not choose being in good mood everyday.. Kinda difficult huh?! I always remind myself that XP So, sometimes I can do it but when bad mood come.. ohhh noooooooo ~ T.T
Should compliment rather than criticize;
Use loving words rather than scathing remarks;
Arguments and fights always been started with unkind or rude words;
Gentle words could be easily replaced to avoid arguements and fights;
"If we are mindful in our speech, being cautious always to speak with affection, our relationships will be grounded in trust and compassion."
- Venerable Hsing Yun -
credit to: The Book "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living"
Whenever I read the book, in my mind, I will reflect my past. Reflect how rude am I treating people around me.. Don't respect parents and always argue or shout at them.. I don't want to but my anger have been control me.. Then after my action, I was regret of how rude am I but what I have said there is no turning back.. I can't take back words that I have said to them.. However, learn from mistakes and promise not to repeat again.. It is not too late to learn and change my words.. Being a gentle and a generous (etc) person, I think or can say that believe that, should be able to speak gentle words or words with no harm to others very naturally.. Just like when you are in good mood, you will treat people very nice and say nice things to them, as in there is no harm to others.. So why not choose being in good mood everyday.. Kinda difficult huh?! I always remind myself that XP So, sometimes I can do it but when bad mood come.. ohhh noooooooo ~ T.T
22 August 2006
Living in Harmony with Others . .
Buddha teaches us about building affinity and living in harmony with others..
The four virtues:
1. Giving
2. Speaking with kind words
3. Conducting oneself for the benefit of others
4. Adapting oneself to others
Most people lives and focus on their own comfort and success in order to satisfy themselves, often unwilling to put others ahead of ourselves. Also, strive to be be better than others and often measure the quality of their livings by comparing with others around them..
Selfishness, people prevent from being generous to others and make all kinds of excuses for not to give..
1. Giving
"It Is Better to Give Than to Receive"
Once there were two men from the same village; one was misery, one was generous. They both happened to pass away at about the same time. In death, they appeared before King Yama, who was about to pass judgement on their past actions. He told the two men, "I'm goin to let both of you be reborn into the world. One of you will always be giving, while the other will always be receiving. Which one would you rather be?"
The misery person immediately spoke up, "I want to be the one that will always be receiving". The generous man doesn't mind being the one who would continually be giving, and so he nodded in agreement.
King Yama said to the misery man, "Since you choose to be receiving from others, you will be reborn as a beggar. This will give you plenty of opportunities to be on the receiving end." Then, he said to the generous man, " You will be reborn into great wealth. Share your wealth with those less fortunate and give alms."
Giving is not necessary have to be money or possessions. It can be; help someone who has fallen down, show concern for others or when we give compliments.. The acts of kindness which do not cost anything and which we are all capable of performing..
- Venerable Hsing Yun -
credit to: The Book "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living"
I read that book and feel that wanted to share with others, and so I posted it here.. People often see those cover of the books are not interesting and don't bother to see the inside.. Anyway.. thanks for read it patiently and then spread to others as well ^^
When I read that, of course I was thinking of myself.. Thinking that.. "What about me?" Always ask questions to myself to determine whats good and bad ><
However, I am still normal human though.. One of my friend ask me for something but I just ignore "Terrible huh".. I was thinking, why should I because that friend does not help me when I need help for something, thats why I do the same to that friend.. Thats what normally people do in this world.. I knew I were wrong but I was unhappy for what that friend treat me like that.. Sigh ~
I realise that friends around me do not alert their own mistake but focus on others' mistake.. Once you make a mistake, they will remember it forever.. They would not remember how helpful you are.. I believe most people only remember how badly others treat them instead of how good others treat them..
There is too much stories in my life..
Anyway.. to be continue with; 2. Speaking with kind words ..
The four virtues:
1. Giving
2. Speaking with kind words
3. Conducting oneself for the benefit of others
4. Adapting oneself to others
Most people lives and focus on their own comfort and success in order to satisfy themselves, often unwilling to put others ahead of ourselves. Also, strive to be be better than others and often measure the quality of their livings by comparing with others around them..
Selfishness, people prevent from being generous to others and make all kinds of excuses for not to give..
1. Giving
"It Is Better to Give Than to Receive"
Once there were two men from the same village; one was misery, one was generous. They both happened to pass away at about the same time. In death, they appeared before King Yama, who was about to pass judgement on their past actions. He told the two men, "I'm goin to let both of you be reborn into the world. One of you will always be giving, while the other will always be receiving. Which one would you rather be?"
The misery person immediately spoke up, "I want to be the one that will always be receiving". The generous man doesn't mind being the one who would continually be giving, and so he nodded in agreement.
King Yama said to the misery man, "Since you choose to be receiving from others, you will be reborn as a beggar. This will give you plenty of opportunities to be on the receiving end." Then, he said to the generous man, " You will be reborn into great wealth. Share your wealth with those less fortunate and give alms."
Giving is not necessary have to be money or possessions. It can be; help someone who has fallen down, show concern for others or when we give compliments.. The acts of kindness which do not cost anything and which we are all capable of performing..
- Venerable Hsing Yun -
credit to: The Book "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living"
I read that book and feel that wanted to share with others, and so I posted it here.. People often see those cover of the books are not interesting and don't bother to see the inside.. Anyway.. thanks for read it patiently and then spread to others as well ^^
When I read that, of course I was thinking of myself.. Thinking that.. "What about me?" Always ask questions to myself to determine whats good and bad ><
However, I am still normal human though.. One of my friend ask me for something but I just ignore "Terrible huh".. I was thinking, why should I because that friend does not help me when I need help for something, thats why I do the same to that friend.. Thats what normally people do in this world.. I knew I were wrong but I was unhappy for what that friend treat me like that.. Sigh ~
I realise that friends around me do not alert their own mistake but focus on others' mistake.. Once you make a mistake, they will remember it forever.. They would not remember how helpful you are.. I believe most people only remember how badly others treat them instead of how good others treat them..
There is too much stories in my life..
Anyway.. to be continue with; 2. Speaking with kind words ..
20 August 2006
Weirdoooo XD
Just now have an interesting conversation with this friend of mine.. he seriously siao one XP and so.. I love to bully him XO because our conversation is so funny and so I decided to post here... HAHA ~
here it goes..
He saying that he really concern me and so I should to concern him too.. Why should I ?!
I ask him why and give me 10 DIFFERENT reasons *LOL* (knew he will give 10 SAME reasons) XD
he said..
1. WE close mahh
2. I care for you so you must also care for me
3. Like that can close our bond
4. I like the feeling of being care
5. I am a weird person
6. Buddhism encouring caring for people
7. This is also a way for meditation
8. You are doing good deed
9. Increase you goodwill
10. You will confirm enjoy it
What the ~
My turn..
1. Yess mehhhh ?!?!?!
2. Not necessary ohhh~
3. HUH?!?! *Blur*
4. So whats gonne do with me ?!
5. I TOTALLY agree
6. Hmmm.. Buddhism is a religion, and so.. your sentence is ERROR !! (wahahha~)
7. Nothing to do with meditation you siao kiaaaaa ~
8. Is that good deed?! [O. o]
9. Me become "sam pat po" only
10. I confirm sure will be suffering..
In conclusion.. only ONE acceptable.. Therefore, YOU FAIL !!! nyahahahhaha ~
here it goes..
He saying that he really concern me and so I should to concern him too.. Why should I ?!
I ask him why and give me 10 DIFFERENT reasons *LOL* (knew he will give 10 SAME reasons) XD
he said..
1. WE close mahh
2. I care for you so you must also care for me
3. Like that can close our bond
4. I like the feeling of being care
5. I am a weird person
6. Buddhism encouring caring for people
7. This is also a way for meditation
8. You are doing good deed
9. Increase you goodwill
10. You will confirm enjoy it
What the ~
My turn..
1. Yess mehhhh ?!?!?!
2. Not necessary ohhh~
3. HUH?!?! *Blur*
4. So whats gonne do with me ?!
5. I TOTALLY agree
6. Hmmm.. Buddhism is a religion, and so.. your sentence is ERROR !! (wahahha~)
7. Nothing to do with meditation you siao kiaaaaa ~
8. Is that good deed?! [O. o]
9. Me become "sam pat po" only
10. I confirm sure will be suffering..
In conclusion.. only ONE acceptable.. Therefore, YOU FAIL !!! nyahahahhaha ~
Relationship ~
Recently got a close friend not really happy of her relationship with her boyfriend.. Could not help her much as i don't know their relationship situation.. All i can do is to support and encourage whatever she do..
Kinda sad to hear she is not happy as i know that she really appreciate the relationship.. I can see that from the very beginning she is very happy and as a good friend.. I really feel happy for her too.. I guess might be communication problem as relationship go longer, "real" attitute shown >< Don't know how is she now.. Hope she is alright as she is a emotional person..
Thinking of the love relationship between a couple.. starting is always the sweetest time ever.. BUT.. How about the time spend later?! What will happen then?! Arguement.. Fight.. Jealousy..Whats more?!
Strong love must be build within the couple in order to go on the relationship.. Well.. there is even more for the couple to do so! Patient.. Trust.. Understanding.. etc.. Isn't it complicated.. Even strong love might turn to jealousy = = Really complicated though.. and whatever happen.. words must be careful as couple fight or argue.. First thing in mind will be "I wanna break up with this person".. This kind of person is even worst than the worst!!!
There is another i don't understand.. even a relationship that already last long to like 4 or 5 years also end up with sad ending.. sigh~ Life seriously complicated = =
My ex who already been like almost 3 years no contact suddenly contact me.. and surprisingly telling me for wanting to get back together = = what the.. Mann ~ what on earth is he thinking of that?! [O. o] Whatever..
Kinda sad to hear she is not happy as i know that she really appreciate the relationship.. I can see that from the very beginning she is very happy and as a good friend.. I really feel happy for her too.. I guess might be communication problem as relationship go longer, "real" attitute shown >< Don't know how is she now.. Hope she is alright as she is a emotional person..
Thinking of the love relationship between a couple.. starting is always the sweetest time ever.. BUT.. How about the time spend later?! What will happen then?! Arguement.. Fight.. Jealousy..Whats more?!
Strong love must be build within the couple in order to go on the relationship.. Well.. there is even more for the couple to do so! Patient.. Trust.. Understanding.. etc.. Isn't it complicated.. Even strong love might turn to jealousy = = Really complicated though.. and whatever happen.. words must be careful as couple fight or argue.. First thing in mind will be "I wanna break up with this person".. This kind of person is even worst than the worst!!!
There is another i don't understand.. even a relationship that already last long to like 4 or 5 years also end up with sad ending.. sigh~ Life seriously complicated = =
My ex who already been like almost 3 years no contact suddenly contact me.. and surprisingly telling me for wanting to get back together = = what the.. Mann ~ what on earth is he thinking of that?! [O. o] Whatever..
18 August 2006
Friday NiGht ~
Just now went to Bismi Restaurant (Indian Restaurant).. *aGain* with other friends.. Plain Roti Canai only also cost AUD2.60 !! Back in Msia.. only cost 60 CENT !! Oh my.. so BIG different.. Anyway, enjoyable dinner with them ^^ then hangout at my friend place watched some videos as we were talking about DBSG and Suju *lol* .. It was so funny in our conversation..
We watch DBSG called Suju on the live radio station when DBSG were in Japan.. DBSG were fooling around, want Suju to guess who is on the phone *lol* .. DBSG change their voice and Suju can't recognise!! haha.. It was so funny where the part JJ (DBSG member) acting as he is fans of Suju.. He is so cute ^^ haha.. and the part MinMin (DBSG member) is very cute too as he really trick Suju with his "voice" *lol* then he change back his own voice.. is like OMG.. soooo different!!! hahahha..
Then my friend show the Suju (13 members) new drama, which they were seperate into groups and come out with scary story to film.. The purpose of the drama is that people will vote which drama is the most scary one.. sort of competition between the members.. hehe..
And so, my friend show one of the drama.. it started off with one of the group discussion on what kind of story to come out.. and then the drama begin.. It was in high school after classes over, there is a student being punish by a teacher.. That student is full of anger and he commited suicide in the class.. Using the cutter.. (did not show how he suicide) .. *camera man focus* the blood dripping *I knew something wrong* *no time to avoid the eyes on the screen* *he died and eyes were open wide* *freaking sound system* .... BLOODY HELL!!! FREAK ME OUT!!! Is like just on second watch the drama and I already scream and fell down T.T
My scream scare my friends but not the drama T.T so basically only watch like one minutes T.T
"Shutter".. The Thailand scary movie was my very last scary movie I watched years ago *force by friends* *no choice* T.T and now just ONLY that so call no big deal shot freak me out T.T
sigh.. definitely NO MORE scary movie AT ALL IN MY LIFE!!!
*NO*
T.T
We watch DBSG called Suju on the live radio station when DBSG were in Japan.. DBSG were fooling around, want Suju to guess who is on the phone *lol* .. DBSG change their voice and Suju can't recognise!! haha.. It was so funny where the part JJ (DBSG member) acting as he is fans of Suju.. He is so cute ^^ haha.. and the part MinMin (DBSG member) is very cute too as he really trick Suju with his "voice" *lol* then he change back his own voice.. is like OMG.. soooo different!!! hahahha..
Then my friend show the Suju (13 members) new drama, which they were seperate into groups and come out with scary story to film.. The purpose of the drama is that people will vote which drama is the most scary one.. sort of competition between the members.. hehe..
And so, my friend show one of the drama.. it started off with one of the group discussion on what kind of story to come out.. and then the drama begin.. It was in high school after classes over, there is a student being punish by a teacher.. That student is full of anger and he commited suicide in the class.. Using the cutter.. (did not show how he suicide) .. *camera man focus* the blood dripping *I knew something wrong* *no time to avoid the eyes on the screen* *he died and eyes were open wide* *freaking sound system* .... BLOODY HELL!!! FREAK ME OUT!!! Is like just on second watch the drama and I already scream and fell down T.T
My scream scare my friends but not the drama T.T so basically only watch like one minutes T.T
"Shutter".. The Thailand scary movie was my very last scary movie I watched years ago *force by friends* *no choice* T.T and now just ONLY that so call no big deal shot freak me out T.T
sigh.. definitely NO MORE scary movie AT ALL IN MY LIFE!!!
*NO*
T.T
GratefuL ~
Buddhism is my religion.. I know nothing about religion when I was young but I just follow what my mother doing things, such as go to temple, pray and etc.. I even when for 7-Days retreat few times as my mother register for me.. Without complain, I went to the retreat few times.. Retreat is all about meditation, practice buddha's teaching and etc.. Put aside all personal matters and set our mind free during the period.. To develop our discipline, concentration and wisdom.. At that moment, I started to learn and understand about my religion..
Buddhism as an education.. Buddha is not a God but instead, a teacher who teaches us about achieving freedom from suffering, Ultimate Happiness.. The Five Precepts to observe.. etc..
There is too much to know, learn and practice on the teaching of buddha..
I always pray and transfer merit to my family and all beings.. May they be well and happy always.. I pray and pay respect to Buddha, and be grateful for what I have now.. I pray and repent for all mistakes I done in the past and remind myself not to repeat the same mistakes and also not to do inappropriate manners in future..
I read books such as, "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living" "Di Zi Gui : Guide to a Happy Life" "The Buddha Speaks of : The Cost and Effect Sutra" .. etc..I don't know how to explain in words, but what I feel is that.. I feel more calm and peace in my mind and my heart..
I would never forgot the teaching of Buddha.. Practice what I have learn from Buddha's teaching.. I knew that my life will be much better ^^
I am grateful I have learn ^^
Buddhism as an education.. Buddha is not a God but instead, a teacher who teaches us about achieving freedom from suffering, Ultimate Happiness.. The Five Precepts to observe.. etc..
There is too much to know, learn and practice on the teaching of buddha..
I always pray and transfer merit to my family and all beings.. May they be well and happy always.. I pray and pay respect to Buddha, and be grateful for what I have now.. I pray and repent for all mistakes I done in the past and remind myself not to repeat the same mistakes and also not to do inappropriate manners in future..
I read books such as, "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living" "Di Zi Gui : Guide to a Happy Life" "The Buddha Speaks of : The Cost and Effect Sutra" .. etc..I don't know how to explain in words, but what I feel is that.. I feel more calm and peace in my mind and my heart..
I would never forgot the teaching of Buddha.. Practice what I have learn from Buddha's teaching.. I knew that my life will be much better ^^
I am grateful I have learn ^^
17 August 2006
想你的黑夜
深夜了
每個人各自朝著自己的美夢裡去了
而我 還在傻傻的思念著他
寂寞的夜晚
對著窗外的天空
看著吊在空中的月亮
腦袋裡出現了你的影子
想著你也是否同時在賞月
寧靜的夜晚
對著窗外的天空
找不到星星的足跡
想把我的心聲告訴星星
傳達給你
星星都躲在你那兒了嗎﹖
漫長的夜晚
躲在被單裡
合上雙眼
似乎感受到你在我身邊
抱著我 好讓我靠在你懷裡
悄悄地吻我額頭讓我入睡
亮麗的早晨
在童話故事裡
王子的吻呼喚醒睡美人
睜開眼睛就見到王子
而你 只是你的影子出現在我腦海裡
感激你送給我的美夢
你對我的溫柔
我已偷藏在心底
讓我感到非常溫馨
每個人各自朝著自己的美夢裡去了
而我 還在傻傻的思念著他
寂寞的夜晚
對著窗外的天空
看著吊在空中的月亮
腦袋裡出現了你的影子
想著你也是否同時在賞月
寧靜的夜晚
對著窗外的天空
找不到星星的足跡
想把我的心聲告訴星星
傳達給你
星星都躲在你那兒了嗎﹖
漫長的夜晚
躲在被單裡
合上雙眼
似乎感受到你在我身邊
抱著我 好讓我靠在你懷裡
悄悄地吻我額頭讓我入睡
亮麗的早晨
在童話故事裡
王子的吻呼喚醒睡美人
睜開眼睛就見到王子
而你 只是你的影子出現在我腦海裡
感激你送給我的美夢
你對我的溫柔
我已偷藏在心底
讓我感到非常溫馨
14 August 2006
GoOd Time . . .
13 August 2006
Today went to have lunch with some friends.. indian restaurant ohh >< then went for shoppping with them.. my girl friend can't help herself not to go into those shops with the word DISCOUNT posted in the window *LOL* as for me.. i must buy things from these shops XP discount weiii... haha.. bought a bag, cute keychain, dress, rings .. cheap owww ~ saw few jacket and dress are soooo nice BUT expensive T.T only if i have money to buy XD
Later on.. went to St Kilda Beach.. so nice.. but we don't have chance to go the beach cause we too busy shopping *LOL* Sure got chance to go anytime since is quite near the city XP There is a lot of cake shop there!! all the chocolate and cheese >< yumm yumm.. but we did not buy!! haha.. we went to a KL cafe for dinner.. i ate nasi goreng (vegetarian) *LOL*..
Great time with them XD
These days really calm myself from not afraid of "things".. Today shopping really make a big relieve to me.. stay at home too oftenly make me "no air to breath" T.T
Life is too challenging and I have to face the fact of lose and accept it.. Think wisely will not be too pressure on myself.. Meditation is the best way to develop happiness in daily living.. I should meditate more ^^
* P e a C e *
Today went to have lunch with some friends.. indian restaurant ohh >< then went for shoppping with them.. my girl friend can't help herself not to go into those shops with the word DISCOUNT posted in the window *LOL* as for me.. i must buy things from these shops XP discount weiii... haha.. bought a bag, cute keychain, dress, rings .. cheap owww ~ saw few jacket and dress are soooo nice BUT expensive T.T only if i have money to buy XD
Later on.. went to St Kilda Beach.. so nice.. but we don't have chance to go the beach cause we too busy shopping *LOL* Sure got chance to go anytime since is quite near the city XP There is a lot of cake shop there!! all the chocolate and cheese >< yumm yumm.. but we did not buy!! haha.. we went to a KL cafe for dinner.. i ate nasi goreng (vegetarian) *LOL*..
Great time with them XD
These days really calm myself from not afraid of "things".. Today shopping really make a big relieve to me.. stay at home too oftenly make me "no air to breath" T.T
Life is too challenging and I have to face the fact of lose and accept it.. Think wisely will not be too pressure on myself.. Meditation is the best way to develop happiness in daily living.. I should meditate more ^^
* P e a C e *
12 August 2006
Lost My SouL Before I Lost My Life
mann.. i really have no idea whats wrong with me.. in all the sudden i feel stress at this semester.. even i ONLY take 3 subjects T.T is just only started new semester!!
oh my god..
is like i am entering the door of hell!?
on my way to?! ...
I aM LosT T.T
Couldn't find my way out..
I wonder..
Where is the light lead me to the exit?!
I wonder..
When will this suffering end?!
I wonder..
Will there any hand lift me up?!
I wonder..
Where is my confident gone?!
I wonder..
Will my tears stop?!
I wonder.. I wonder.. I wonder..
I wish this world could just live simple without any further growth in economy.. less challenging.. less politics.. no wars..
Right now is just too much.. giving people more stress and pressure, which may be lead to suicide.. well actually people give people stress tho..they wish for more than what they have right now!!
sigh~ life is complicated..
my life is complicated tho ~
i lost my soul before i lost my life ..
oh my god..
is like i am entering the door of hell!?
on my way to?! ...
I aM LosT T.T
Couldn't find my way out..
I wonder..
Where is the light lead me to the exit?!
I wonder..
When will this suffering end?!
I wonder..
Will there any hand lift me up?!
I wonder..
Where is my confident gone?!
I wonder..
Will my tears stop?!
I wonder.. I wonder.. I wonder..
I wish this world could just live simple without any further growth in economy.. less challenging.. less politics.. no wars..
Right now is just too much.. giving people more stress and pressure, which may be lead to suicide.. well actually people give people stress tho..they wish for more than what they have right now!!
sigh~ life is complicated..
my life is complicated tho ~
i lost my soul before i lost my life ..
11 August 2006
todaY ~
Today is a really tiring day.. went to uni very early borrow some books ><
Today finally attend that lecture class.. Well.. he is not that bad tho XP just that must 100% concentrate his lecture because he will ask you questions about what he talking ><100% concentrate!!! How am i goin to do that!! after listening his lecture, at most 30mins, i will have gone to my dreamland T.T Now because of him i HAVE TO do that T.T
Have been feeling weird to this lecture.. i am so afraid of him!!! T.T WHY?!?!?!?! wanna die mann~ remind me of my high school english tuition teacher.. i was so afraid of her too and even make me cry T.T she is sort of impatient person.. maybe because she is single XP
sigh.. must work hard more than anyone as i am not a smart person =.= is that everyone born being doomed whether in smart or stupid brain?! arghhhh ~ i wish i can at least get smarter tho ><
あたし、ほんとにばか！
Today finally attend that lecture class.. Well.. he is not that bad tho XP just that must 100% concentrate his lecture because he will ask you questions about what he talking ><100% concentrate!!! How am i goin to do that!! after listening his lecture, at most 30mins, i will have gone to my dreamland T.T Now because of him i HAVE TO do that T.T
Have been feeling weird to this lecture.. i am so afraid of him!!! T.T WHY?!?!?!?! wanna die mann~ remind me of my high school english tuition teacher.. i was so afraid of her too and even make me cry T.T she is sort of impatient person.. maybe because she is single XP
sigh.. must work hard more than anyone as i am not a smart person =.= is that everyone born being doomed whether in smart or stupid brain?! arghhhh ~ i wish i can at least get smarter tho ><
あたし、ほんとにばか！
10 August 2006
FoOD.. i miss "YoU" XD
There is not much option for a sick person like me to choose whatever food i wanna eat, plus i am vegetarian at the moment XD i just miss spicy food T.T *Korean Food*!!! *KimChi*!!! *Ddeok bok ee (Rice Cake in Hot Sauce)*!!!
yumm yumm..
last week when to a friend house for dinner.. she cook korean food XD
Took a pic ><
hmmm.. sort of after meal XP there is fried fish, kimchi, rice cake+fish cake ^^
okay.. Korean Food that I LOVE >< Ddeok bok ee (Rice Cake in Hot Sauce)!!!
Ddeok bok ee (Rice Cake in Hot Sauce)
8 oz ddeok bok ee ddeok (tube shape rice cake)
1-2 sheets fish cake, cut into bite size
1/2 onion, roughly chopped
1/4 cabbage, roughly chopped
1/4 carrot, sliced
1 green onion, chopped
2 tbsp go choo jang (Korean chili paste)
1 tbsp go choo ga roo (Korean chili powder)
1 teaspoon minced garlic
2 tsp sugar
1 tsp soy sauce
pepper
sesame seeds
Put rice cake in a pot, add water to cover, cook until soft. Add go choo jang, go choo ga roo, sugar, soy sauce, pepper.Bring to a boil, reduce to simmer until the sauce gets a little thick. Add vegetables, cook for 2-3 minutes. Put fish cake in, simmer for another 1-2 minutes. Finish with green onion and sesame seeds. Serve hot.
There is also another way of cooking..
Kan jang ddeok bok ee (Rice cake in soy sauce)
4 oz beef (any grilling part with less fat) *Some people don't eat beef like *me*, so i think you can add whatever you want ^^*
3/4 lb ddeok (rice cake, flat oval shape)
1/4 carrot
1/2 onion
2 green onions
2 oe mook (fried fish paste cake), any shape/flavor, cut into bite size
2 tablespoons sugar
4 tablespoons soy sauce
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon pepper
1 tablespoon minced garlic
2 teaspoons sesame oil
3 cups water
Soak ddeok in a water for an hour, drain.Put a wok on a high heat, add beef and sesame oil, cook for a minute.Add 3 cups water, bring to a boil. Season with soy sauce, sugar, garlic, add ddeok, let boil again.Onion and carrot goes in, reduce heat, cook until ddoek gets tender. Add oe mook, green onions, salt and pepper to taste. Cook for another minute.
credit to: Korean Kitchen *THX*
Must cook for family edii ><
Can't wait!! really delicious oww ~~ I just love it ^^ *lol*
>>(^3^)
yumm yumm..
last week when to a friend house for dinner.. she cook korean food XD
Took a pic ><
hmmm.. sort of after meal XP there is fried fish, kimchi, rice cake+fish cake ^^
okay.. Korean Food that I LOVE >< Ddeok bok ee (Rice Cake in Hot Sauce)!!!
Ddeok bok ee (Rice Cake in Hot Sauce)
8 oz ddeok bok ee ddeok (tube shape rice cake)
1-2 sheets fish cake, cut into bite size
1/2 onion, roughly chopped
1/4 cabbage, roughly chopped
1/4 carrot, sliced
1 green onion, chopped
2 tbsp go choo jang (Korean chili paste)
1 tbsp go choo ga roo (Korean chili powder)
1 teaspoon minced garlic
2 tsp sugar
1 tsp soy sauce
pepper
sesame seeds
Put rice cake in a pot, add water to cover, cook until soft. Add go choo jang, go choo ga roo, sugar, soy sauce, pepper.Bring to a boil, reduce to simmer until the sauce gets a little thick. Add vegetables, cook for 2-3 minutes. Put fish cake in, simmer for another 1-2 minutes. Finish with green onion and sesame seeds. Serve hot.
There is also another way of cooking..
Kan jang ddeok bok ee (Rice cake in soy sauce)
4 oz beef (any grilling part with less fat) *Some people don't eat beef like *me*, so i think you can add whatever you want ^^*
3/4 lb ddeok (rice cake, flat oval shape)
1/4 carrot
1/2 onion
2 green onions
2 oe mook (fried fish paste cake), any shape/flavor, cut into bite size
2 tablespoons sugar
4 tablespoons soy sauce
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon pepper
1 tablespoon minced garlic
2 teaspoons sesame oil
3 cups water
Soak ddeok in a water for an hour, drain.Put a wok on a high heat, add beef and sesame oil, cook for a minute.Add 3 cups water, bring to a boil. Season with soy sauce, sugar, garlic, add ddeok, let boil again.Onion and carrot goes in, reduce heat, cook until ddoek gets tender. Add oe mook, green onions, salt and pepper to taste. Cook for another minute.
credit to: Korean Kitchen *THX*
Must cook for family edii ><
Can't wait!! really delicious oww ~~ I just love it ^^ *lol*
>>(^3^)
09 August 2006
生老病死
人間痛苦 *生老病死* 無法逃避的四道 ..
病.. 每個人都會生病.. 怎麼樣的病呢﹖﹗ 太多了..
哪.. 通常都是發燒啊.. 傷風啊.. 喉嚨痛啊.. 等等的..
昨天﹐不知道為什麼早上起來突然發燒.. 感覺到好像非常嚴重﹗
全身無力.. 頭暈暈的.. 站都不穩.. 走路像個老人.. 唉~ 求生不如死﹗
我只是發燒而已呃﹗想想看.. 那些病倒躺在醫院的不就更慘嗎﹗﹖
唉.. 還是最慘的是.. 病倒了沒人照顧呃﹗
這時候﹐我想起我媽.. 當我病倒時﹐她會很細心的照顧我..
幫我換布然後放在我的额頭讓我的頭退燒.. 煮粥給我吃.. 拿水給我喝.. 等等..
現在呢﹗﹖
在國外的我﹐什麼都要自己來﹗無能為力.. 都已經病得那么慘了還要煮﹐然後不停地要去換布弄濕它呃﹗
煮的菜﹐吃了還更沒胃口 T.T
誰看了都想吐﹗
病.. 每個人都會生病.. 怎麼樣的病呢﹖﹗ 太多了..
哪.. 通常都是發燒啊.. 傷風啊.. 喉嚨痛啊.. 等等的..
昨天﹐不知道為什麼早上起來突然發燒.. 感覺到好像非常嚴重﹗
全身無力.. 頭暈暈的.. 站都不穩.. 走路像個老人.. 唉~ 求生不如死﹗
我只是發燒而已呃﹗想想看.. 那些病倒躺在醫院的不就更慘嗎﹗﹖
唉.. 還是最慘的是.. 病倒了沒人照顧呃﹗
這時候﹐我想起我媽.. 當我病倒時﹐她會很細心的照顧我..
幫我換布然後放在我的额頭讓我的頭退燒.. 煮粥給我吃.. 拿水給我喝.. 等等..
現在呢﹗﹖
在國外的我﹐什麼都要自己來﹗無能為力.. 都已經病得那么慘了還要煮﹐然後不停地要去換布弄濕它呃﹗
煮的菜﹐吃了還更沒胃口 T.T
誰看了都想吐﹗
看到了吧﹗﹖
T.T
健康非常重要﹗不幸的話﹐患上沒藥可救的病那就可糟糕了﹗還更不幸的就是有藥都救不了﹗XP
Let Food Be Your Medicine and Let Medicine Be Your Food !
06 August 2006
クロサギ Kurosagi *The Black Swindler*
Currently chasing a japan drama called *Kurosagi*.. It was shown quite long though.. Anyway..
Kurosagi is a manga series which turn into drama act by Yamashita Tomohisa *Yamapi* ^^
There are 3 types of con artists..
シロサギ Shirosagi *White Swindler* .. Those who trick people for their money
アカサギ Akasagi *Red Swindler* .. Those who prey on the opposite sex in order to play with their emotions/feelings
クロサギ Kurosagi *Black Swindler* .. Those who prey only on Shirosagi and Akasagi ; A con artist that cons on other con artists..
It is an interesting japan drama about Kurosaki *act by Yamapi*, is a swindler called Kurosagi, that want to destroy all professional swindlers especially Shirosagi *White Swindler*. Kurosaki's father was trick by Shitosagi and so.. the father planned family suicide. However, Kurosaki is the only one survive in the family and so, for the avenging for his family, he swear to destroy all the swindlers.
It is all about swindle people in a large amount at least 1 million!! The most intersting part is how Kurosaki swindle those pro swindlers ^^ very exciting!! Using fake identity.. 'sleeping' company.. fake bank account.. make people have fully trust on him ^^
At the same time, he is actually helping the victim who got cheat by those swindlers.. get back their loss from swindlers..
"If everyone ignores the law and does what ever they want, then this society would become a mess." Kurosagi: "The law can't protect people. If it is like that then why should we obey the law?"
Kurosagi is a manga series which turn into drama act by Yamashita Tomohisa *Yamapi* ^^
There are 3 types of con artists..
シロサギ Shirosagi *White Swindler* .. Those who trick people for their money
アカサギ Akasagi *Red Swindler* .. Those who prey on the opposite sex in order to play with their emotions/feelings
クロサギ Kurosagi *Black Swindler* .. Those who prey only on Shirosagi and Akasagi ; A con artist that cons on other con artists..
It is an interesting japan drama about Kurosaki *act by Yamapi*, is a swindler called Kurosagi, that want to destroy all professional swindlers especially Shirosagi *White Swindler*. Kurosaki's father was trick by Shitosagi and so.. the father planned family suicide. However, Kurosaki is the only one survive in the family and so, for the avenging for his family, he swear to destroy all the swindlers.
It is all about swindle people in a large amount at least 1 million!! The most intersting part is how Kurosaki swindle those pro swindlers ^^ very exciting!! Using fake identity.. 'sleeping' company.. fake bank account.. make people have fully trust on him ^^
At the same time, he is actually helping the victim who got cheat by those swindlers.. get back their loss from swindlers..
"If everyone ignores the law and does what ever they want, then this society would become a mess." Kurosagi: "The law can't protect people. If it is like that then why should we obey the law?"
04 August 2006
wHat A DaY ~ ~
Aikss.. really have a exhausted day!! *my eyes really give me 'warning(s)'* LOL~ (see previous post XP)
Today is seriously a bad day.. and a good day as well XP
As usual.. gotta get up early for class.. didn't overslept though XO but then didn't sleep well these days *sigh*.. anyway.. reached the train station in time BUT.. no train to the destination i wanna go!! Suppose there is a train at 904am!! *praying hard* Thinking that i am goin to late again even i did not oversleep!!! Gonna get a big 'wack' from the so call 'crazy' lecture.. Waited for half an hour for the train.. THEN.. the train stopped halfway!! what the hell.. again waited in the train for another half an hour T.T finally reached and gonna take bus to uni.. and so.. waited another 10mins T.T alright then.. reached uni and bla bla bla~~ and.... oppsss~ CLASS CANCEL!!! T.T should i be happy or what!?!?! really a big surprise!! can't believe i have waited 1hour + for the cancelled class T.T good to hear that class cancel anyway.. give me a big relieve ^^ *Luckily good thing happen after the bad one XP*
well well well ~ the power of BOTH of my eyes XD *LOL* balance though XP really gimme a big HIT!! what a day~ went for walk in city.. and bought things i want >< everything goes smooth though.. hehe.. tonight goin to have korean food cook by a friend!!! yummy~~
Alright then.. hope you got a nice day ^^
Today is seriously a bad day.. and a good day as well XP
As usual.. gotta get up early for class.. didn't overslept though XO but then didn't sleep well these days *sigh*.. anyway.. reached the train station in time BUT.. no train to the destination i wanna go!! Suppose there is a train at 904am!! *praying hard* Thinking that i am goin to late again even i did not oversleep!!! Gonna get a big 'wack' from the so call 'crazy' lecture.. Waited for half an hour for the train.. THEN.. the train stopped halfway!! what the hell.. again waited in the train for another half an hour T.T finally reached and gonna take bus to uni.. and so.. waited another 10mins T.T alright then.. reached uni and bla bla bla~~ and.... oppsss~ CLASS CANCEL!!! T.T should i be happy or what!?!?! really a big surprise!! can't believe i have waited 1hour + for the cancelled class T.T good to hear that class cancel anyway.. give me a big relieve ^^ *Luckily good thing happen after the bad one XP*
well well well ~ the power of BOTH of my eyes XD *LOL* balance though XP really gimme a big HIT!! what a day~ went for walk in city.. and bought things i want >< everything goes smooth though.. hehe.. tonight goin to have korean food cook by a friend!!! yummy~~
Alright then.. hope you got a nice day ^^
03 August 2006
到底會發生什麼事呢﹗﹖
不知道為什么 .. 最近右眼和左眼在跳 .. 會不會是不夠睡呢﹖﹗
今天呢.. 右眼也一直在跳﹗ 左眼一時也在跳﹗
人人都說眼睛跳就是警告你 一些事情將發生呃﹗
哪 .. 到底左眼還是右眼跳是好事呢﹖﹗
我左右眼都在跳呃﹗
左右都跳又是怎麼樣呢﹖﹗ 那不就是好事和壞事都會發生﹖﹗
朋友告訴我右眼跳是好事.. 可是我怎麼總是覺得右眼跳是壞事﹗﹖
其實.. 有幾次我的右眼一直跳.. 不久過後﹐不堪設想的事情發生﹗
雖然不是什麼嚴重的事情.. 就不想它發生而已..
就這樣..
唉.. 說真的.. 最近的日子過得很不開心.. 非常失落啊﹗
人生.. *嘆氣*
想這麼多又為何呢..
還是好好的過日子吧 ><
今天呢.. 右眼也一直在跳﹗ 左眼一時也在跳﹗
人人都說眼睛跳就是警告你 一些事情將發生呃﹗
哪 .. 到底左眼還是右眼跳是好事呢﹖﹗
我左右眼都在跳呃﹗
左右都跳又是怎麼樣呢﹖﹗ 那不就是好事和壞事都會發生﹖﹗
朋友告訴我右眼跳是好事.. 可是我怎麼總是覺得右眼跳是壞事﹗﹖
其實.. 有幾次我的右眼一直跳.. 不久過後﹐不堪設想的事情發生﹗
雖然不是什麼嚴重的事情.. 就不想它發生而已..
就這樣..
唉.. 說真的.. 最近的日子過得很不開心.. 非常失落啊﹗
人生.. *嘆氣*
想這麼多又為何呢..
還是好好的過日子吧 ><
01 August 2006
愛很簡單 ~
忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
. . .
愛 .. 真的那麼簡單嗎﹖
為什么愛一個人愛得那么痛苦﹖
那是因為你用真心去愛
全心全意地去愛一個人 ..
時間就如水
不停地流
相處久了
這一男一女的關係
已經不是普通關係了
不知不覺地
兩人都愛上了對方
越愛一個人越更快忘記自己
將所有的東西留給他
忘了自己
她
曾經用著一顆寶貴的心去愛
不管那個人對她多麼糟糕
還是傻傻地愛著那個人
相信著初戀是多麼美好
陶醉在初戀的世界裡
日子慢慢地過去了
對著沒回報的愛
腦袋一片空白
她
累了
心有多痛
心裡好痛
流著眼淚
放棄了她這段初戀
把這段初戀的愛變成悲劇
她
心如死灰
萬念俱空
心如刀割
心裡留下深刻的疤痕
她
不敢去愛了
抱著懷疑的心
對著新的感情
不想悲劇重演
不想每個感情的結局都一無所有
就這樣
沒得到安全感的她
他和她
始終都沒走在一起
更加沒手拖著手
各自安靜地
沒把心裡的話說出
每一句話都藏在心裡
到了最後一刻
還是保持安靜
她
流著眼淚
忍著心痛
聽著他說 ..
" 我們是很好的朋友 "
. . .
不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
如果你还有一些困惑
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你Baby
Yes I Do
I Love You
我一直在这里Baby
一直在爱你
I Love You
Yes I Do
永远都不放弃这爱你的权利
也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
. . .
愛 .. 真的那麼簡單嗎﹖
為什么愛一個人愛得那么痛苦﹖
那是因為你用真心去愛
全心全意地去愛一個人 ..
時間就如水
不停地流
相處久了
這一男一女的關係
已經不是普通關係了
不知不覺地
兩人都愛上了對方
越愛一個人越更快忘記自己
將所有的東西留給他
忘了自己
她
曾經用著一顆寶貴的心去愛
不管那個人對她多麼糟糕
還是傻傻地愛著那個人
相信著初戀是多麼美好
陶醉在初戀的世界裡
日子慢慢地過去了
對著沒回報的愛
腦袋一片空白
她
累了
心有多痛
心裡好痛
流著眼淚
放棄了她這段初戀
把這段初戀的愛變成悲劇
她
心如死灰
萬念俱空
心如刀割
心裡留下深刻的疤痕
她
不敢去愛了
抱著懷疑的心
對著新的感情
不想悲劇重演
不想每個感情的結局都一無所有
就這樣
沒得到安全感的她
他和她
始終都沒走在一起
更加沒手拖著手
各自安靜地
沒把心裡的話說出
每一句話都藏在心裡
到了最後一刻
還是保持安靜
她
流著眼淚
忍著心痛
聽著他說 ..
" 我們是很好的朋友 "
. . .
不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
如果你还有一些困惑
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你Baby
Yes I Do
I Love You
我一直在这里Baby
一直在爱你
I Love You
Yes I Do
永远都不放弃这爱你的权利
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